Positively PG in PG!

Sorry I haven't updated my blog for a little while. I've been keeping a big secret for a few weeks and I was worried that if I sat down to blog I'd accidentally blurt it out. But since we've now had our official first doctor's visit and got to see our little miracle and hear it's tiny heart beat I feel a little safer sharing our big news!

Even now I am still reeling with the idea that there is a little person inside of me! For years and years and after crying buckets of tears I didn't know if we'd ever make it to this point. But, here we are standing at the precipice between a couple and a family of three, and I couldn't be more excited!

I will finally be able to feel comfortable in the baby department at stores, have to pack a diaper bag, and get to be called mommy! And my sweet hubby will get to test out all his amazing skills on our actual child. I have no doubt that he will be an excellent father, as I have seen his connection to children in countless ways, be it with our neighbors kiddos, the nursery children at church or just our neices and nephews.

To all of you who have encouraged us and believed in us one day having a family of our own I thank you. For those of you have left blog comments or listened as I whined or complained about feeling left behind, or even just took a moment to understand what infertility felt like for us. Thank you! I know I couldn't have made it through all those sad days without your love and support and encouragement.

My testimony in the love my Heavenly Father has for me, has grown so much since we got our first ever positive home pregnancy test! For the longest time I felt like He must have loved me less or trusted me less than other women out there who were able to be fruitful and multiply, but I now know that's not true. I also know without the peek at His plan for us, none of this would have ever come to pass.

A few journal entries back I wrote about pregnancy dreams that Kevin and I had been having, one specifically thatI had shortly after my surgery kept coming to mind. I truly think it was a little hint from Heavenly Father to when we should try. That in combination with the dreams Kevin kept having lead me to believe that we would be blessed with a little bambino if we had the faith. In addition to this, we also held a fast ( went 2 meals without something that we heavily rely on and prayed and studied during that time in order to spiritually prepare ourselves for the answers to our prayers) with the intent start our family. It worked! God is good, and He loves us. I have no doubt that all I had to go through in the past brought me closer to Him and his plan for our family, and I am eternally grateful for the struggles that bring such joy in the end! I also know that if we trust in Him and the bigger picture there are more blessings than we could ever expect.

Speaking of which, here is our little blessing feautured in his or her very first photo shoot in utero. They told me I am 7 weeks ( at least that's what I am measuring at ) and my estimated due date is November 1st. For those of you who are confused looking at the picture our baby is the little dash in between the two white semi circle shapes in the center of the picture. According to our What to Expect book, only currently the size of a blueberry. All I have to say is grow little blueberry grow! Your mommy and daddy love you already so much more than you know. We can't wait to meet you! But please oh please stay in your womb until we say you can come out!

Baby Robinson's First Photo - 7 weeks