Christmas Wish

If I could climb upon Santa's lap, just like the days of yore
I'd ask him for something special, that I'd never asked for before

It wouldn't be for a tea set, or a cuddly teddy bear
It wouldn't be for the latest toy or anything to wear

I don't need any fancy gadgets
Or my stocking stuffed to the brim.

The gift I'm asking for this year.
Is a little her or him.

Many people I know already have one
Some of them have even more


Somedays they count them as blessings
While others they seem like a chore

There are challenges 'round every corner
And surprises 'round every bend

Just when you've got something mastered
You have to start over again



There are days when they're sulky and sullen
They are days when they're giggly and sweet

You get to dress them up in fun outfits
And tickle their tummies and feet

They can you keep awake when you're sleepy
They can throw up wherever they please


But no matter the trouble they cause you
And how many times you wished to be free


Try to imagine your life without them
And you'll know what it's like to be me


Life without diapers and binkies
Without crying fits on the floor


Never browsing through parenting web sites
Or the baby department at stores

Adoring each tiny accessory
Each coordinated crib set and swing

But never purchasing whatever is cutest
For your tiny, red, wrinkley thing

Sure, you might ALWAYS be worn out
And your home might be messier too

But I'd trade you for all that goes with it
To have our own little bug - a - boo

Santa, I know you are busy
And there are many childen on your list

But if you have a spare moment
Don't forget about my Christmas wish

I hope that it's not on back order
There are many others who'd like to see

A magical little miracle
Waiting beneath their tree.

If Christmas is too busy . . .
We'll wait til New Years Eve, and if that is too soon for us the package to receive.

Cupid could deliver it when Valentines rolls around
Or a little leprechaun could drop it off without the slightest sound

The Easter bunny on his way could make a special stop
He'd be right back on the bunny trail without an extra hop

Or even the Great Pumpkin, rising from his patch
Or Tom the Turkey, if he gets away from the feast without a scratch.

We'll even wait til next year
If that works better for you.

We've waited four long years
And we could wait one more.

Just please don't forget about us
Or the one we'll be waiting for.

- 12/13/2010 Julianna Robinson * May Not Be Duplicated Without Permission*


To my Fertile Friends,
I hope you know how blessed you are this holiday season to be able to celebrate the Holidays with your children. I hope each night you are able to thank God for them and for the joy they bring into your lives. I understand that it is not always easy, but as someone who longs for the day they get to be called "Mommy" it is worth it. There is nothing I look forward to more than being able to have at least one little one to call our own, to teach, to love, to cuddle, and to prepare for this crazy world. If you currently have that blessing in your life don't forget to be thankful every day for it. Even when their having a tantrum or throwing up in their beds, even when they are upset and say they "hate you". You don't realize how many women and men out in the world would trade places with you in a heart beat. People spend millions of dollars every year to be able to have those little blessings and miracles, please oh please don't ever take them for granted. Love them, teach them, nurture them, take photos of them, treasure when they are little and get prepared for when they become pre- teens and teens. Don't grumble about the little things but laugh about them and move on. Someday I hope to join the mama club. I long for the day I get to purchase something in the baby department, not for someone else but for me. I can't wait to outfit a nursery, lose hours of sleep, and learn as I go along. I have faith that I will get there someday, but while I still have the perspective of going without all of those wonderful things ( I know you think I am crazy). I just wanted to remind all of you how truly blessed you are. Count your little blessings this Christmas, and join me in the prayer that those of us who are without may someday know the joys and the pains of parenthood first hand.